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Hi, it's so nice to know we are not alone. this sucks. a wise dad once told me that we are battling demons and we are human therefore we have to trust and allow God to fight this shit for us. so tell him, God, i need you to fight this fight, i give it to you. give him your children's well being also. it will keep you sane. i pray everyday for the hate to go away, i guess it goes away when it goes away. sometimes, though, i need it just to get through the day, i think. it's so exhausting but our children will know the crap we have trudged through to get to them, they will know that NOTHING could make us stop fighting for them and they will run to the person who they feel the most emotionally secure with. i make that person me. even when they said, we have two mommies now. i sucked in my breath and said two are better then one, like when you have two pieces of candy. YUCK! but we have to. then i say please God give me the strength. that's the only way i have gotten through this. it was meant to be, our meeting, for together, we will prevail!! Good luck, girl, and stay stong, you already have! Elizabeth